Yeah, in love with Sara Bareilles’ voice! I am still upset whenever I remember that I lost all the videos I took during Sara Bareilles’ concert in Singapore last October! I am wondering if Sara will ever return to Jakarta and hold another concert. OOT, I really enjoyed Ingrid Michaleson’s demo version of Over You.
Oh, it’s weekend! Dined out with parents at a Japanese restaurant, they seemed happy with their udon!
Found some interesting movie trailers this evening; The Man in the High Castle –It takes place in 1962 in an alternate universe where Germany and Japan won World War II, The Boy who Smells Like Fish –a story about a boy with fish odour syndrome, and Ilo Ilo –a Singaporean movie with family theme.
Saw a cute Komono watch! No money to buy!! Gotta be a perfect bday gift though. Anyone? *grins
Have yourself a fabulous weekend!
I feel like sleeping when I realise I haven’t logged anything in my blog today. My whole body is aching! I have been trying to cut down on carbohydrates (well, I only have rice for lunch). I don’t feel anything different though. I am starving all day!
I met Jay again today, he went to my office with his boss to discuss some upcoming projects. We were still awkward (or maybe I was the one who’s awkward?), it was weird. I tried my very best to act professionally though. I avoided glancing at him. He captured my attention though, there’s something about him that is special. Too bad what I felt was not reciprocal. I don’t regret it though. I have always been unfortunate when it comes to love, so I guess i am getting used to it. Soon I won’t be awkward anymore when he’s around me.
Oh, I feel like hanging out, but I am just too lazy. Ugh, all this passive aggressive attitude must stop. I am ambivalent about so many things, it’s not healthy!
OOT, Meghan Trainor is so beautiful and talented!
Here’s something funny about today’s Bappebti gathering: Princess and I were gone ‘fangirling’ over Laura Prepon and Tatiana Maslany. We stalked their Instagrams and simply adored them lol Never had a real friend to fangirl over together, so it was so much fun!
I have this random thought. I keep on wondering, it might have been easier to ask a girl out if I were a guy. I am saying this because as a girl I feel there are certain limitation I can’t cross. In my culture, it’s uncommon to ask people of the opposite gender to go out. A girl will come across too strong when asking a guy out. And most guys I know don’t like it when a girl come across too strong. So it’s frustrating in my part, I wanna go out with a guy, but I don’t know how to bring myself. It’s exhausting to try to understand the dos and don’ts. I am a newbie! Seriously! And I am too tired of paying attention to people’s feelings but I can’t help it. I am super sensitive that’s why. Point is, why is it so difficult for a girl to really do what she wants? Why there should be culture constraints that stop a girl from doing what she wants because it’s unpopular to do it? Why do I feel like a girl is being put in a passive situation where the only thing she can do is instigating a guy to do something just because it’s good for his ego? Why do I have to be careful not to bruise a male ego? Why do I have to worry too much about not saying the right things? Like I need some kind of approval from people? Why am I afraid to just be myself? Why can’t I ask, ‘what is your intention?‘ since the beginning of an interaction (so I won’t invest my time to the wrong people)? I have always been one who’s straight forward about a situation, I wear my heart on my sleeves. Why can’t you see that I am special in so many ways? Why do I have to wear make-up just to get your attention? Why can’t I be smarter than you? So many questions why?!
I am addicted to Popcorn Love! C mentions about this fanfic, I didn’t bother to read it at first, but then ‘why not?’, I badly need a distraction from my boring life. I have read the first 20 chapters in the past three days. I was actually planning on reading two chapters everyday before I sleep, but then the story gets more exciting and intriguing and now I am addicted!! I even sneaked out of my office during lunch break just so I can read properly (Even during lunch break, my boss often asks me to do some tasks when I sit in my desk). Now I have to pace myself from reading too much, because there’s only 15 chapters left!
I was thinking of calling it a night and sleep early. However, here’s a recap of my day!
1. I got my nail polished FOR THE FIRST TIME! EVERRR!
They look cute! SERIOUSLY!
2. My baby Vespa reached its first 1k on my way back home! 1k in 4months isn’t too bad, right?
Baby Vespa’s First 1k!
3. I received my first GOLD Garuda Miles! Woohoo!! Here comes free Garuda lounges at the airport *smirks
I am back! I am a little bit excited about my upcoming trip to Manila. I can’t begin to describe how much I
love or hate the city, it’s all mixed up but there’s something about it that makes me wanna return to this city from time to time. No, it’s not as organised as cities in Australia or America, the traffic is crazy (well, not as crazy as Jakarta though), the but Manila is definitely one of my favourites. When I was looking for a place to stay, I remember about airbnb and decided to check some of the hosts in Manila. I have found some good places to stay, but I am not sure if it’s close to some friends I wanna meet there. I need to make a list of places I wanna visit. I was thinking of taking a bus to Batangas or Tagaytay City, however I would prefer to have a local friend to accompany me though. I still don’t have a friend to go with me :'(
I feel fine today, no indescribable wave of emotions flowing. I guess I finally realise why I was so emotional yesterday, it was all because of hormones! Work was good. The morning weather was rather foul. My clothes was getting wet due to rain. I am losing my appetite (which is great!) and I left work at 6pm (which gives me more time to rest, watch some new series and write this post).
I think it’s been a year since I wrote down something on my blog. I have been feeling so unmotivated and uncreative lately and I know I can’t blame the situation. Work is boring, life is boring, no new love life, no new friends, I don’t find any intellectual conversation to stimulate my brain and I hate myself right now. So I challenge myself to write everyday in the next 7 days. Knowing myself, this will probably my only post because I will make up excuses not to write anything tomorrow or the next day, but let’s see if I finally have the discipline to overcome this challenge.
I NEED A VACATION!
I badly need a vacation from all the routines. I don’t feel like waking up early, I feel exhausted right after I arrive at the office, and I hate that I should follow orders from people. I arrive at a point where I don’t care if my boss will transfer me to another division. I don’t feel like respecting my seniors (even though I will put a smiley face in front of them and pretend that everything is okay), I don’t feel like being nice to people (and I know this is so wrong!), I wanna scream because I am angry, because I am disappointed and I am not sure I understand what’s going on inside my mind. Ugh, I think I am going crazy.