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When I told her that it was out of my character to ask someone out for a cup of coffee on an Instagram comment, she smiled. It was more than 6 months ago when I randomly asked her on IG. I thought I was weird, but I am glad I did it.

It’s actually the second time I met her, the first one was when we had lunch with Princess and their other friends. Well, we didn’t talk much at that time. I was just a plus one.

When I found her texting me early this week asking if we should meet over a cup of coffee, I giggled and smiled so wide. Of course I said yes. I’d definitely want to see her dimples and smile again.

I can’t hide my nervous feeling. I don’t like meeting random people. I don’t even like hanging out with people when I am not comfortable to do it. It’s been a while since I have the kind of convos that made me think about so many things in life. It was the deep convos that I have always been longing to have. It’s so easy for me to get attracted to people who could entertain and stimulate my brain with various range of topics.

We’re are a total opposite, that’s for sure, but I think that’s what make out talk interesting (well, at least for me). We talked for almost four hours before I realized it was already 10pm.

It was one of my happy days. I wish the feeling is mutual.

My Top 30 AKB48 songs 


Random post! I’m listening to Himawari on Repeat since last night. Jurina, Tomocin, Ume chan and Sae Chan’s performance @TokyoDome was freaking awesome!

JKT48 is going to hold its very first Request Hour on the 27th of February 2016 @BalaiSarbini Jakarta. People can vote their favourite songs out of 215 JKT48’s songs. The ticket is publicly sold today, I got myself the platinum ticket (IDR800,000). I am excited! Go get yours and vote for #JKT48RH2016. Link for the ticket click here

When I think about which AKB48 songs I love the most, I really can’t choose (there’s just too many to choose!). However, I finally put Bokutachi Wa Tatakawanai on my #1 list because it’s the first AKB48 song that makes me fall in love with AKB48. It’s a perfect #1 as well because Paruru is center and the MV is super awesome.

Here’s my Top 30
1. Bokutachi Wa Tatakawanai

2. Gingham Check

3. First Rabbit

4. Kuchibiru ni Be My Baby

5. Eien Pressure

6. River

7. Iiwake Maybe

8. RESET

9. Kibouteki Refrain

10. Ponytail to Shushu

11. Oogoe Diamond

12. Yume No Kawa

13. Himawari

14. Shonichi

15. Juuryoku Sympathy

16. Bingo!

17. Koi Suru Fotune Cookie

18. Kimi Wo Kimi Wo Kimi Wo

19. Tomodachi de Irareru Nara

20. Labrador Retriever

21. Manatsu No Sounds Good

22. Kimi no koto ga suki dakara

23. Yuuhi wo Miteiru ka?

24. Shoujotachi Yo

25. Sakura No Shiori

26. Everyday, Kachuusa

27. Beginner

28. Heavy Rotation

29. Madonna no Sentaku

30. Kinou Yori Motto Suki

What’s your fave?

One of those days


Today I have a pretty rough day at work. We had a group meeting (around 50 people in the group from my division). Each and every head of sub divisions were sharing thoughts and evaluation of 2015. I waited for my turn and I expressed all my concern working there. I explained my need to feel comfortable working in the organization. I urged the people to be more gender-sensitive and avoid making jokes that’d discredit women. I had to say my concern because some of my colleagues and supervisors often throw nasty jokes about women and it makes me angry. I also asked for my rights to have personal leave (FYI, my boss is an ass when it comes to giving annual leave permission to his staff). I even asked to leave work on time (when there’s nothing urgent) (again, it’s because my boss dislikes staff who go home on time. WTF?! -as if I have nothing else to do outside the office). And he keeps on saying “you’re a single lady, you have no husband or child to take care of” (yeah, my working environment is awful, it makes me angry!). I also said some of my personal feeling about the lack of opportunity to improve myself (because I feel like my boss sabotaged my application for overseas training,etc). I often avoid conflict but lately I feel like I have to speak my mind because I am not happy with my situation. Some of my friends applaud me for speaking the truth. Apparently they have similar feelings, they just don’t have the courage to speak. So yeah, it’s been that kind of day.