A few weeks ago I received an email to notify about blog suspension. The blog.com team warned me that I will lose my inactive blog, although I need to figure out which blog because they didn’t pinpoint which one. Suddenly I remember I have some blogs; the one I made for the very first time because I was inspired by a blogger, Astrid Felicia, the one I had in Friendster because they offered a blog service to go along with their social networking website, the one I created for CSS trial (I couldn’t remember this blog’s name) and the one in WordPress. I tried googling the first blog, the only phrase I remember was ‘ILoveBlue’, I think it is the blog tagline, so I typed it in the search engine. Unfortunately, no result, so I looked up my old emails because I must have had notification from Blogspot about the blog. I finally found it in an old email I wrote to Astrid. That embarrassing moment when you read old emails. Yahoo is my very first and primary email account since year 2000, so it saved so many correspondences I did back in high school, university until now.
I was surprised of what I found in my first blog, I only find some entries, the first one was posted on 16 November 2003, it’s been 9 years and I can see the transformation of myself from my writing style. It’s funny :) My adolescent years were full of love and pimples problems. Yeah, PIMPLES! My skin is sensitive and the imbalance hormone made it worst. As for love, I have always been unlucky when it comes to love. It’s either one-sided love or not-long-lasted love. Well, the love complication is advancing now; distance issue. You know, the kind of complexity when you like someone’s who is out of your ‘geographic range’? Blame the internet and social networking websites! So yeah, I am glad I started my first blog.
The second blog was my Friendster blog. Friendster was a prominent social network website. Too bad they have suspended all blogs under the website that is considered as the grandaddy of modern social networks. I remember I was worried about not having any chance to ‘update my relationship status’. It’s always ‘single’, and just like any other teenager who want to ‘show off’ her boyfriend, this website is a perfect place to tell my ‘tiny world’ that I was ‘desirable’. Well, at least that was my thought. It’s silly I know, but hey, I was once young and stupid :p We’re living in the world of perception where social acknowledgement and acceptance are more matters than our own self-acceptance. I still face the dilemma from time to time. Friendster blogs were also my research subject. I graduated from the university after I defense my thesis about ‘self-disclosure through webblog’.
I cannot remember my third blog, I remember Dista because she was the one telling me that I can modify CSS template, I had good trial and error time.
The most recent one is this blog. I can’t recall when was I started the blog, but it’s been wonderful to share some of the stories here. There are so many pain, happiness, tear and silly things scattered all over the entries; life lessons. I rarely re-read my entry, but maybe my kids can know me better through this blog. I have crossed many things off my bucket list, but surely there are more dreams waiting to be crossed off. One step at a time, I’ll get there.